Ok i admit i'm so screwed today!! Damn. Kena bang cos' tot yest history exam was at 8am. Scarely it was at 10!!! Man i burned the midnight oil lo! Den woke up so early.. basket.. waste my sleeping time. i become damn blur le man. Ok after history paper went crazy with marcus, eugene and jerome. Dont take it literally la, we just went to watch movie. i like 1 month nvr watch movie le lo. 'New Police Story' hit me like a rock, as it was one hell of an action film i've seen in months. take quite a while to subside my craziness after the show. even had to go toilet wash face. One things for sure. The thugs were fucking zai! just look at them go u will steam man. n jackie's chan acting this time is not as good as the rest of his other shows, but the fighting scenes were splendid, although quite short. Funny parts confirm got de la, typical jackie. The thing that got me up fuzzed up was the overwhelming cuteness of the uniform-clad Charlene Choi. Damn cute can. i dun care wad others think, i think she rox. haha. Cant wait to watch another movie!! I dun care is with who! i just wanna watch a movie! i addicted. save me. listening to Fish Leong's Ning Xia now the tune very catchy i cant concentrate on writing this stupid blog le. no one will read oso. haha! K time to fuzz up my bed! Till den!

i'm sick and down//someone save me

Since i dun hav any paper tomorrow i shall write a long one today. Ok here's a story about 2 people, maybe 3.

Betrayal

//Once upon a time, there were two people living in a faraway land, where people were supposed to live forever. They were destined to meet. Finally, on a fateful day, they supposedly met. One was going left, and the other, right.

Unintentionally, their eyes met and the guy was intantly mesmerised. The guy was on tenterhooks. Was this the girl he had been pinning for for years? He took on the task of getting to know her and soon they became friends. She was like an angel in his heart. 2000 years back from 24 May 5004, the guy had the same experience, but it ended up in tribulation. This anguish was so strong that he was plunged beyond the axis of despondency and melancholy.

The reason for this 2000-year-old pain was the cause of betrayal and untruthfulness. There she was, 1999 years ago, in the earnest state of all. There came a mail from nowhere. Inside it was a separation notice, stating that she would like to enjoy some peace and solitude for a long while, and therefore wants to end this relationship. The guy was sad at first, but slowly and steadily he took to reality and responded wisely. Although that was the last he saw of her, and her friends, he still possessed them, as memories were what he cherished most.

Everything was back to normal. Cool as it was, the thunderstorm came again. The guy was in his reverie yet again. However, he was startled out of it as swiftly as he got in by the news of her. Things were getting from bad to worse, as the guy found out that the girl had actually gotten attached. It was not even 1 month, he thought. What a change of events. The everlasting memory of the angel soon turned into dust. A feeling of being betrayed and lied upon cultivated in his heart. She was actually giving an excuse. So now, he thought, what was the real reason behind the ending of the relationship? He had been treated like a fool. Everything turned dark yet again. Mysteries arose yet again.

Getting away from the painful memory, he thought of the girl he met hours ago. Slowly, his dream of being together with her eternally withered away, as his tormenting memories threatened to engulf him once more.


Ok that's the end of my story. I know many will not bother to read it, haha, but its alright. Its not my loss ;>

Reality struck me once again. once again i fall to this phrase dont trust anybody. its damn true. i just have to believe it now. the 'angel' who once dominated my heart has fallen into the deep abyss. What happened was a pack of lies. Isnt it very ironic. something like wanna being single can turn into ending up with another. its impossible to understand i know. cos onli the pple who've done it knows. did you pple do it? when some1 wants to leave you he/she can just freakin' give any excuse and run away from it. 'They've done it. Congrats.*claps* Wretched meaning behind the show they put up. Everytime. now 'they've forgotten the excuse 'they' gave 'long' ago. totally clean forgotten. its alright man. not like i give a shit about it. not like i'm even 0.00001% interested about it. This show's a junk, i rather forgo. jus worried for another innocent victim who MAYBE gonna get damned by that lead directing this evil show.

if this post is a stress-buster, its a fuckin unpleasant one.

Being a good friend, i have to post this. From the bottom of my heart,


Marcus you get well soon! Get out of Alexandria Hospital ASAP ya? Every1 misses you! God bless you!


Another thing. Some1 was so 'kind' to say if going visit marcus call me along.. but when go visit marcus tt time he nvr jio me lo.. Nice one lo. kena pang sei.. hyaiz...

Hey EVERY1! Juz tot of posting this poem to spur all to keep working! Dun give up ppl we can overcome this ghastly prelims! A.Maths/Geog next lets jia you! For ppl having O'lvls this also applies to you! Lets carry on working hard and succeed 2gether! Bottom line: DONT SLACK ANYMORE! Haha. Its for me too btw. I think i'm the one slacking the most, haha!


Give Me the Wind.

I am at my best with the wind in my face,
When overcoming the challenge, with pace.
The pace that requires more effort, more strength.
But once gained momentum, endures with great length.

It's easy to sit back, placid and calm
Comfort is only a relative balm.
It seems an advantage, better than strife
But is dulled by stagnation, stifling life.

Progress needs movement, energy, drive,
No chance for improvement if you do not strive.
Nothing's for nothing: cause and effect.
That which you work for, you've more chance to get.

So give me the wind, let it blow in my face,
The more I confront, the more strength I'll embrace.
Steps are not mounted, nor challenge o'ercome.
Without certain courage or effort be done.

Okay she's out. But so what?! i stil lurve her! Shirin i mean. hahax! k Marcus, Jerome, Eugene, Earl, Dominique, Danne in my house now. Eugene, Earl, Dominique and Danne playing illegal mahjong in my room now, cos my mum's around and they have to play using towels to cover the surface of the mahjong table to reduce the noice intensity. Haha, mahjong knowledge. So Marcus, Jerome and me surfing net. I needa take over liao so cnt type too much.. Argh why dun plae money.. i reli short of cash at da moment man.. hahax! Ok i have to go till den!

OMG she's so cute wiv braces!!
Chio! WadevA la she juz rox!

Yesterday was freakin' funny. Eugene A.K.A. dj Abdul, MArcus and Ridzuan came my house 'study'. Nah we dint study. We played dominoes, took clips of them toppling. Only the first one succeeded. Nvm la we had fun. Den i took out my voice recorder and took a secret recording of the peeps in my room. Some funny moment it is. We laugh till stomachache, tears dropping man. Damn! We came out with some funny idea to record songs. We acted out some radio stations. Malay, Chinese, English, Tamil. All also have. Hahax. We cre8ed wad was supposed to be the 'most hilarious music act ever since Will Hung': McBerd. Whahax! Eugene became the DJ, nicknamed dj ABdUL. Thx for the funniest intros to our funniest songs ya? hahax! all in all we had extreme fun, resulting in losing track of time. Oh it was a serious illness we caught cos' by the time they left my house[so soon?? Aww..], it was 7? Kay, nice remembering all the fun times, its back to SS and EMaths le. CYa all. Till den!

Man Utd's been bewitched. Confirm 1. Now they play lyk completely possessed bunch of ppl. Hyaiz. K 2dae's rather dull, and i've been slackin' d whole day. Not good. 2moro's prelim 2 n i'm still slackin. Reli regretted not answering to a vry impt greeting today.. hyaiz.. may not hav another chance. Damn. Ok vry tired le gg slp. Till den!

Hey kawaii partner[nigel] linked u le. Ok i reli cant remember what i wanted to say le, cos after reading the peoples' favourite n most adorable son's[eugene] blog, i felt i was teleported back in time.. I was totally chocked with emotions. Eugene's description of the events are so real and i had even participated in some of em. Its like the warm moments were flashing past me. I experienced mixed emotions. A mixture of delightfulness and sadness. The sadness part's bcos time reli flew by darn fast, and there's no turning back. With every step we take, millions of events are going on. But there's onli a select few worth our time mentioning and remembering, as these are the greatest moments of our lives. These things can onli happen once, and for me, these moments are from my days in secondary 1i/2i. Yes, not 3i, 4i, but in those two years. Sorry all my sec 4i fwens no offence but i reli dun feel the bond between us YET. I dun feel there's any true ppl who reli reli care about mi in 4i. However, my bestest frens are from sec 1i/2i and we bonded in those years. Look, our friendship's is still so close. If i'm missing from our usual group u ppl will question and get concerned, i tink :p i also remembered the time in sec 1 when eugene reli saw a weakness in mi char. and 'dao-ed' mi for quite a long time, until i changed. I reli became better alwight. But there's absolutely no such things from other places. I reli feel the warmth from these ppl. U ppl gave me reli good n sincere advice too, no matter how it's done, either by scolding mi or telling me my bad points. This i duno how to cherish. this type of fwens are scarce n i reli appreciate. i reli miss those times... reli. eugene thx so much 4 letting mi relive all these happy memories, although u may not have thought of doing so when u wrote in ur blog. i've said it in eugene's tagbox n i shall say it againx. May 2 ignatius's memories live on 4ever n may our friendship nvr die. i tink i noe why i'm so emotional over this small thing..i'm been suffering from mild depression. hey but that's alwight, reality have struck mi n i finally confided my tightly-kept secrets in 1 of my best friends. I'm getting better now, so dun be afraid of mi ya. it wun be spreadable as i wun show it in front of my fwens ;) till den...

There's the calm tides coming in my direction.. i've breathed the new air, the fresh air. Everything's new. Even my pathetic mind. I sped off to meet eugene and frens. 1st time in centuries i was early.. good. dis is something new too. After everyone's present proceeded to Paya Lebar, den to Brent's house. Nvr been there, so that's a new experience for mi too. Went there. His house is huge, ReAL huge. Condos this big is almost extinct. Went down and met Randall. He n frens were sitting by d poolside. Nice weather......Evening. I was unusually quiet in the evening. Dunno why. By then a few pple got real drunk. Drunkards can actually make you laugh, can u believe it. The one and only Megwin(is that how u spell it). Funny guy[when drunk]. Ppl kept laughing AT him, not with him.. i dint stop laughing myself either. Srry bout that. Den there was the pool. Jumped in after Nicholas. Was cold in d beginning but slowly adjusted. In fact the pool saved me from the merciless hands of cake. I was spared by the caking hands of Sharmin, only after spewing some rude words from my mouth.. i reli regreted.. reli sorry! it was smt new tt i did also, as i've nvr done tt, to a gurl at least. Not to mention the cake that came from the birthday cake, duh. Its a chocolate one, my nemesis. I had all my pimples owing to it. Nice one la. Dere's a lot of laughter n fun, in d end i decided not to include those parts, as i know that these memories will be with me wherever i go, so there's no nid for writing them in, ya?

After going up to Brent's house, quite a few ppl had already left, i bathed with warm water. It was like the hot springs brought rite inside the house. Damn song. While almost all of us peeps were upstairs bonding, Megwin n HJ[izzit? mi nt too sure] were still downstairs, talking bout their childhood..[megwin's drunk, so i suppose they will talk bout tt??]Not long after Ridz Eugene n i took same bus home. Yepx, some fun day it was, not to mention only the brief presence of a Guest-Of-Honour could settle us peeps down. We were lyk crazy n overboard in some cases. All in all it was 1 hack of a day and 1 hack of an experience worth remembering for a lifetime. Till den..

Kao! Today had great fun! Okay so here it goes! In d morning was forced out of my bed by my alarm clock.. had to go for physics remidial. It was hella sh!t. Over at 3A classroom its already so hot but still GOH SOR HOON held her lesson there. Wads more she tot we're in Polytechnic ar, squeeze us 4 classes in all into 1 pathetic room. WTH even breathing we already have difficulties le stil expect us to concentrate wad sh!t... OK ledat nvm she stil tell us if we were not gonna learn cos' we were not writing nething den can auto-leave the klass. Now become our fault le lo.. Nice 1 la.. After that waited for Jerome and gang by playing soccer 1st 4 bout' 1/2 hr den left 4 TPY.
At tpy met up with Harry n Marcus. wanted to book badminton court at sports hall but some malaysian women basketball team booked the courts for d whole dae le so we[Harry, Eugene, Jerome, MArcus, Danne, Earl, Dominque, me] went TPYC CC play badminton. Out of 5 days 3 days play badminton, all at the same place.. But it was stil fun. Lost touch with my backhand.. smashes all over d place.. mayb cos of the blisters on my feet. darn pain, but stil forced myself to run. Played almost for the full 2 hrs we booked; end up damn shacked.. but it was great exercise.. Went Sumo Bento eat chicken cutlet.. zai place. arguably the nicest place i'm been for lunch. Cheap but nice.. yupx. THeir lemonade was darn good.. after that went library slack with the usual gang 4 awhile den zhao home for tuition,. again.
After tuition had the nicest sleep i've ever had i tink.. yea.. till den

Pics from today available at the left hand column at 'links'.

No one's knocked upon my door

For a thousand years or more

All made up and nowhere to go

Welcome to this one man show

Just take a seat they're always free

No surprise no mystery

In this theatre that I call my soul

I always play the starring role



Taken from "So Lonely"- Novaspace

-Miracles-

The devil's glare shook him tremendously. All he could do was stare back. The humid, sulphur-smelling air did not make things better, as it put out most of the sun's rays, sarcastically leaving a few weak ones alone. The greyish atmosphere was bright just enough to see his face, his emotions. There he was, in the middle of nowhere, images flashing across his head. He knew he did something drastically wrong to be cursed to meet Devil himself, but what was it? The torture of ignorance was immortal.

The tract that he was in was unreachable. He felt the fear and desolation. Although he was quivering, he remained calm inside. He knew there was nothing he could do, or so he thought, and so this was to be his destiny then. Psyched up and ascertained, he walked towards his accursed fate. Devil was ready to engulf him in his hands. With every step he took, they became heavier. Memories of this cannot be erased by now as the imprints of his feet were moulded deeply into the mossy ground.

All he was to do was to take one last step. His heart was pulsating. In a distant he saw, trees begging him not to do it. Their morning dew, sparkling and all, dripped to the ground. Withered flowers appeared to be disappointed with his determination. If this was not what he wanted, then why do it?
Having second thoughts, he started flustering. Could he defy his destiny? Have he the powers to go against God?

He knew what he had to do. He called upon his inner strength. All he got was voices of his family, friends and relatives ringing in his head. All the encouragement, accompanied by some strong words was all he heard. Then there was, stillness all around. However, the insignificant boost was enough for him. He was enlightened.

From within he started to radiate. The sudden immense glow caught his pupils off guard, blinding him temporary. Regaining his eyesight moments later, he found himself leaning on the wall of the corridor outside his flat.
He was safe, although still a little shaken. He had just performed the highest level of magic, which can be simply called a miracle, albeit being rather insignificant to others.

The author speaks to himself...

this story i bo liao den write one.. therefore its quite lame n bo liao.. :P

-Solitude-

The chill wind blew, scattering petals of sakuras round the desolate school. The colourless sky looked like its gonna pour. A tiny figure stood in a corner, not any larger than his confidence. His spirit inside him looked down and out. There was no one beside him. He stood and felt alone. But is he?

Leaning against the grafitti-covered wall, he slumped into a pathetic state. Twirling in the wind, the sakuras completed the postwar-like landscape. Is he thinking too much? Is he trying to hard? So what if there's light on the other side? He don't have anyone to lead him there. He's still waiting for someone to lead him out from the melancholic state he's in. He harboured some hope, but at that very moment a brilliant streak of lightning struck the archaic tree. That's life for you.

The author speaks to himself...

Hey my poetic side suddenly caught up with me.. just in time. :>

Ok today played badminton after skool with quite a few people. These people are Jack, McRon, WeiYang, Cephas, Nic, Kenrick, Rafael, WeiYang's friend, Desmond and lastly Clarence. Was quite 'suay' as all our way there it rained. Luckily i have Nic, we went through d rainy weather together with his black umbrella. The others had to rain in the rain.. Poor things. Nvm that. We reached Toa Payoh Central CC drenched from tip to toe. Went to the court to find them 'air-conditioned'. Actually it was due to the cold weather outside la, people.. But it was really cool inside. Although it wasnt our time to play yet we went ahead anyway, as there's no one playing. Played in the dark for bout 15 mins then somehow the lights came on.. So we started playing doubles. We played from 1.45 till like, 4.45? hahax 'stole' 1 hr frm the CC. AT the last few moments we were awed by Rafael's spell-bounding awesome display of smashing. it was like, 'POW POW & more POW'. Damn zai the sound of the smash. I think i'm the most impressed one. hahax. After using up almost all of our energy we stopped playing and went to Macs to eat. Mcron met his fwens there n Jack bought some wierd drink, which is nice btw. Rafael gave me a chance to dirty my eyes, hahax ;) they know what i'm talking about. Whaahaax. I then guided them the way to TPY interchange n left them dere as i took 155 home first.

First thing at home heard from my maid that my tuition cher came but left cos' i was not at home. Damn.. gonna get another talking-to from my mum.. NoNooO! It can drag for like 1 hr? OMG bless my ears. That's all for today man. Yupx 1 last thing. GOH SOR HOON ish VERRYYY charismatic. At the sci prac. briefing she was like commanding a bunch of troops, all the others 'supervisors' were in awe of her. Till den.

'super crystal clear is how i heard you!' Hahax

Maris Stella Teachers' Day Concert 2004 rox. tt's all, cos sooOooO many other blogs already written bout' it so.. ya... juz wana comment tt mcron's sexy-mama.. whahax. reli brightened up d teachers' dae man.. yea.. About todae.. went 2 plae BAdMiNtOn! yea plaed badminton with 'alotx' of peeps, like Jerome, Harry n Eugene. MAny others juz backed out at d last moment.. hyaiz.. but nvm cos' it was a blessing in disguise as we had a great tym. 1 of d best badminton sessions i can sae [as if we had tat many badminton sessions to choose from] whahax! Although Harry beat mi twice 11-7, 11-8 i was still quite happy, at least he's a worthy person to lose too. Neway Clarence! Why nvr jio mi go plae badminton at Braddell Heights CC wiv u all?! its lyk soo near mi hse lo! BOJIO. SAD. hahax. K after d badminton rushed home 4 chi tuitn.. sowie Eugene cldnt go wiv u all watch d Home Utd match! All in all great daY! ANd i'm sooo happy for Keane! As well as all others!

Nid to metion bout Randall's bdae.. cant wait.. i'm gg ppl.. let's see wad will happen when tat dae comes ya? I'm not gonna bring a whole lot of clothes as i wun nid em'.. some1 will... hahax.. preview of wad's gonna happen? hahax go figure.. dam i dun even noe wad i'm saying!! Scarly i'm not even gg den jialat hah. k cya all den till den