I wanted to, but i cant. Exams have started. GP paper was tough boy.. i totally wrote out of pt for compo. bt heck, i just want to get over the whole promos and get promoted. 2 As 2 AOs isn't tough, but it ain't easy either. i was chatting with swezin yesterday and i planned for the worst - i feel like going to poly if i dont pass this yr. i just hate the word 'RETAINEE' plastered all over me if i failed to get pass.

Ren and Coud, so cute! heh. This new anime i'm watching is DAMN nice, too bad my sources havent uploaded the full series yet.. so right now i'm PATIENTLY waiting. haha. EREmENtAR GerAd... ... !!!

i wanna take a break.. no promos.. no sch.. no mortal presence. i wanna live secludedly.. i wanna live in serene.. i wan...

i want some chocolate.. my drug to happiness.. oh wait.. i've a better solution. just jump.

Maybe not. Why make my blog so moody?? Why not celebrate? there's many joys in this world too, you know?? Like my lovely girlfriend (love her the most), like my joyous family (teaching me advanced Hokkien now ;) finally out that dreadful and embarrassing 'Hokkien for dummies' stage. heh), like my new Sony Ericsson. btw, speaking about Hokkien, i suddenly remembered the fun times in the past. Remembered how my grandma used to teach me Hokkien, or to influence me with her language. I was with my cousin then.. Then she asked both of us,"what is window in Hokkien?"

Either i or my cousin replied, not reli sure anymore,"i know! tan-ah-kao!"

There was silence momentarily, then everyone burst out in laughter. (the correct prounciation is "tang-ka-men")

Fun times really. Couldn't bear to jump anymore, could i? :)

Caught a picture of some clouds illuminated by the sunlight. I know lame la.. Nvm. Just see and forget. :p

Tell me frankly, are my posts so hard to understand?? Are they so scary? I shouldn't put any poems up anymore man.

For the better, i think i'm gonna change my blogskin soon.. a bit bored of this old black skin. i'd rather some white or green. ;P

Oh and.. Does paragraphing every sentence make my posts look more organised and easier to read? People say they see my post like so long leddat, so many words somemore they 'zhao liao la'. Eh i ask again, my posts so scary meh?

See, another new paragraph. I think i'm getting a bit 'bo liao' man, dont write poem nth else to write already, now see la, start writing crap. Who reads this type of uninteresting crap you tell me? Haiya..

Another paragraph.. To say bye bye. :D

P.S. Work hard for promos hor people. (I hope I inspired you people!) ;)) :P

THIS IS CRAP POST PEOPLE! HAA!

GUILT


Facing the bathroom walls,

illuminated by orange lights,

a gloomy feeling fell on me.


Reminiscing,

an overdose of guilt engulfed me.

A subtle hint descended on me -

Too selfish, I am.

I think to myself then,

what makes a man?


I find myself flooded with guilt,

and with a pinch of hatred,

a hatred for myself.

The bathroom is my cell.


-Shijie

A poem composed with so much fun yet with the utmost sincerity.

When I look into your eyes

It made me realise

That you're my bride

Under the bright moonlight sky at night


And you look so ke ai

And I know you're my zhui ai

And I would be happy to die in your arms tonight.

This is so nice, this is so right.

Please be happy. Dont let my world come crashing down on me. If anything happens to you, that'll definitely happen.

When You're In Love


Will i find

the meaning to life

there inside

dreams are so nice


But i found you now

the meaning to my life

here inside

i'll hold you tonight




I'll be happy if you're happy

I'll be fine if you're fine

I'll be thinking of you when you are

thinking of me

i'll be handsome when you're pretty

i'll be there when you're down

'cos there's nothing much to think about

when you're in love

-shijie

Is this world only about money? Taxi drivers are supposed to bring people to their destination swiftly, but because midnight charges are higher, they are willing to fend off some 'small fry' customers in order to earn more profits.

They wait for midnight to come by sleeping in their cars. Their cars are parked all over the side of the roads. Then how about all the people trying to beat their curfew? how about those in need? The drivers just chase them off with a paltry wave of his left hand.

aren't the customers going to pay too? though it may be a bit lesser, it's still money isnt it so? This world is driven by greed and the profit-incentive mindset, but do they have to go to such lengths?

I've to comment on a particular taxi driver though. he was very kind and though some persuasion is needed still, he took in a couple stranded late at night trying to beat their curfews. my heart was a little lightened by that.

Thinking to myself, i thought of the times when bus drivers would speed pass a bus-stop ignoring either the person flagging frantically at the bus-stop or the person pressing the bell in the bus.

Then i came to a conclusion - PUBLIC transport. the word public tells you all you need to know. Contrary to the popular belief "the customer is king", in the 'public world', customers are just merchants to the kings, the people who take on the roles as the bus/taxi driver etc.

before you are a customer to the taxi drivers, you are just a member of the large clique, which is the public. So the taxi drivers tend to choose you rather than vice versa. who's the king in this case then?

getting out of the topic now. I feel like i'm living in a bubble.. i feel like i'm rising and i feel like i'm seeing and being exposed to a lot of things, but actually i'm not. i'm still the same-old-me. I tot i would have a new lease of life after legally breaking out of secondary school, but no.

anyway, speaking of secondary school, i suddenly feel very distant from my old sec sch clique. It's like we've not meet up for quite a long time. Most of you people have changed i tink. i really want a reunion someday.. :) So to my sec sch clique, "we may be busy with our own lives but friends are forever. So lets meet up sometime someday soon ya! Looking forward to it!"