spontaneity

"the task is not so much to see what no-one yet has seen, but to think what nobody yet has thought about that which everyone sees."
-Schopenhauer

is it possible to teach one to be spontaneous? if not, i don't know what i can do already...

an extract of an email taken from "OSLIST archives -- April 1998 (#21)":

"Hi Viv,
...For me, spontaneity is my achillies heel (or one of them). Spontaneity has brought me the most joy I have ever experienced. It has also brought me the most pain I have ever experienced. Because it is such a big part of me, it also exists greatly in my dealings with friends and colleagues in virtual space. So many times I hit the "send" button and then wish I could take it back, wishing I had not been spontaneous---alas, it is not possible. I then quickly pray to my angels and ask them to take care of the message for me. If it isn't to find its way, I hope it doesn't. And with that taken care of, I continue to allow my spontaneity to flow, in most circumstances..."

i prefer this scenario so much more to someone who contemplates so much and after 5 mins, still hasn't reply.

besides, i'm the kind stated in the extract.

lastly, can one who lives on spontaneity live with someone without? i really don't know... i'm trying to find out.

thanks to all who were present yesterday at the bowling gathering!

this saturday's bowling gathering starts from 6.30pm till late people!

"We'll do it all, everything, on our own
We don't need anything or anyone~"

how true...

it's racial harmony day!! here are the pics.

http://memoirshrine.shutterfly.com/action/pictures?a=67b0de21b33f49d48461

there's nothing much to say nowadays. things have become so bland.

anw, yesterday was class outing. we watched pirates of the carribean. not bad for a disney channel movie. i'm not suggesting i don't like disney movies. but the disney logo that appeared at the beginning of the show made me feel like a small kid again. yar yar.. i know you ppl will say i'm alr like a small kid. hah. back to the point, if i were to rate it i'd give it a 7.5/10. 'cos some scenes were rather silly. OHH. it is good to note that there is a small clip at the end of the credits which is really worth-watching. hilarious. bear that in mind yar, people.

then there's today. my school curriculum ended at 11am today. anw, CCA resumed after a long time of suspension. surprisingly, the thing i always look forward to felt like a chore. there was certainly no way at any time during training that i concentrated. was practically only able to breathe after i went out of the bowling alley. dinner was a blast. we tried something new, called the 'new york pizza'. a set consisting of pizza, a piece of chicken and a cup of drink cost me 5.90, which is rather standard. the funny thing is that they actually take our names down and shout for us when our meal is ready.

school's rather shitty nowadays. i havent been studying. and i'm failing tests again (eg. series & seq FA). so what if there's a model student in me. i still suck. a particular teacher will second that.

a special shout-ou to xue er: heys thanks for everything you've said. really brightened up my day/nite. lol. thanks again! =))

happy racial harmony day in advance. cheers.

'the dreams that are laughed at when you talk of them are worth realising, and if you fall, you will do so heroically' - taiwanese internet novelist Giddens on his motto.

taken from the straits times life, july 17 06, pg 6

and that's why i'll continue pursuing my dream.

sometimes you cannot laugh too fast. because you will fall harder.

HAHA

raw GP score: 42.5
after moderation: 43.5
after review of paper: 44
school's kindness: rounded off to 45 so...

I PASSED GP!!!
which translates into 100% passes for me. which is very very good for my kind of lousyee standard!

anw, i got back all my results within this week. i got BBEEE.
math- as expected
physics- i expected A can..
econ- i expected C!! got an E =(
hist- expected to fail... but who knows!!
GP- no need to say alr. haha.

i'm not trying to flaunt okayy! i'm just happy when i compare my results with my own capabilities. but when it comes to comparing with the smart asses of the 1989 batch, i can go screw myself.

so be happy for me, for i am finally relieved after a whole month of worrying. =D

ever the same?

i read a magazine called men's health this morning while watching the WC 3rd place playoffs at the same time and i happened to come across an article which teaches one how to handle the aftermath of a breakup. the points are organised bullet-form, and one bullet read, "forget 'being friends' - while some couples can break up and remain friends, it's rare, ...".

i wondered that i must be one of the lucky few. however, at the same time i wondered, did/could we stay ever the same as before? i don't think we did, and i don't think we could.

most relationships start from couples being friends. i love the friends i have and the way we interact now, and i believe many will agree with me. but hypothetically, if one went into a romantic relationship with one of them and one broke up with him or her, won't that be pernicious to one's friendship with him or her? heck, maybe the article may even be proven right and one may even lose a good friend that he/she loved.

so is a romantic relationship really a good thing, or is it just a tickey to and from a fantasy? and if there really is a break up, will the pair remain ever the same? personally, i think it's a pity. friends are precious, and to lose one in this way is lugubrious. to reckless teenagers, breakups are rather common, and will this translate in the loss of many special friends? i think i wouldn't want to risk that, but nothing's for sure in this world.



a post inspired by men's health and rob thomas's 'ever the same'.

anyway, i practically have a 10am to 12pm school day tomorrow!!! woohoo! beat that! =D

yesterday's outing

movie at the cathay then pool at paradiz. here are the pics.


the cathay.


heading into our designated theatre.


theatre 2!


the lifts in the cathay. stylish! can double up as mirror. LOL.


played some pool after the movie with teng yi and aug.


aug.

got more photos actually (with me in it) but that darren always not online la. cannot ask him for the photos. haha. i'll post them when i have them.

when things don't look alright, then things are not alright.
when things are said to be nothing, then there is something. you know?

school reopens tomorrow! cheers people! =)

When There's No One Else

today is the first day in three non-school days that i hung out like for 'gai-gai'. stupid right, never take advantage of my extra non-school days. i felt real bored in the morning when i found out i'll be staying at home AGAIN. and then the computer was stolen right under my nose by my uber-irritating brother. so, i got really nothing to do. i felt boiling inside and bored and super frustrated. just like a stray animal, i had nobody to go out with because every one was having their outings and own stuffs.

in the afternoon, i went out for lunch at chinatown with my family. i brought a black face along as expected. in the end i suffered as things did not turn out well. i needed to get out. out of desperation, i called sz and vell out for an impromptu dinner gathering. they were kind to agree.

yep, and so, i spent the rest of the day with the most unexpected people - sz and vell. long time neever go out 'gai-gai' with them already. felt like a sense of deja vu man, remember the 'cousins and best friends saga'? LOL. come to think of it i think it was rather silly. yep, except for some things that have changed..

really brought back the old times. i felt glad that i could meet sz again after so long (like 4 months??? haha) and that i found something to pass my time.

*when there is no one else, look deep and you'll find yourself*.

unofficial post

this World Cup is against me i tell you. argh!