Fear..

today brought fear inside me. today told me i'm secretly scared, scared of something i should cherish instead. today pushed me closer to that fear, a force that's impossible to counter...

writing this post made me think about the previous one. i know it's so stupid of me, but i saw a familiar face inside a common car today. the number on the license plate of that car is so acquainted to me. it's a number that i will remember even if i lose my memory. i felt excited. well, actually, everytime i see a license plate that has almost the same digits i will pay closer attention. things like this tell me i'm silly. but i don't seem to stop doing or feeling what i do. but i can conclude that whatever happens, the exodus of memories in and around my current neighbourhood will never happen...


i dunno why but i crave for a doughnut...

Oh Adolescence...

As I went home in bus 153 today after meeting up with some friends, i felt introspective. i started to reminisce. i remember during a trying period (not due to study pressure) from mid april till As last year, i would often study in my school library till late. Although i know it's impossible, whenever i go home after that, i'll always carry the feeling of hope and anticipation, that in the bus home i'll bump into her. i always had this impulse to look around the whole bus in disguise just to hope that i'll see her face. i'll pretend to look for a seat. But again and again i'll be disappointed. dispirited. but the next day i'll carry on the same old routine if i take the bus home, although at the back of my head i knew chances were extremely slim.

Today, while in the bus going the same old route home, i felt the same impulse again. However, instead of disappointment, i felt happy instead. i let out a coy smile, hoping no one ill see that silly side of me. i got to re-live my memories and i felt happy and silly simultaneously; happy 'cos i could relive the innocent days i once had. silly 'cos after so long i still possess this silly habit, which i didn't know i still possess. well, i don't think i still miss her, but it's through these experiences that sparks off my thoughts of what could have been...

Then again, didn't i say that this mistake is something that i will regret for the rest of my life? ain't it true, so true...

oh adolescence...

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*Rule Of Thumb

i'm suddenly enlightened by myself, so i have to write this down to remind myself...

not all questions out there are meant to be answered; not all questions out there must be answered.

happiness comes with peace.
peace cannot come with complexity.
complexity is subjective.
so remember this, shijie.

apathy

apathy. me.
i don't see any news worth reading nowadays. are news getting more and more superficial, or are things getting more and more incomprehensible to me?

people are hotly debating about the Sepp Blatter's "football slave" comment. i don't get it at all. what's there to debate about? i don't see the seriousness of this stupid comment. i can't believe the back pages of newspapers these days are all filled with this single debate. i dont understand at all but the thing is how could i not understand sports news, especially soccer.

in politics, prices are going up everywhere and people who voiced out on this got charged... oh like i care...

i love music. singfest coming soon... so?

national day is coming. (yawns)

yay. do i even care about anything? heys, maybe i don't see the seriousness in life anymore.
just hope my share price goes up. lol. superficial me...