MERRY CHRISTMAS

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Christmas parties are feek'in fun man! Wicked

New year parties anyone??? hahahaha

Counting down the days

It ain't gonna be long till i enter NS, so i thought working ain't as viable as slacking and playing my guts out for now. So... what have i done so far...

Prom night + post-prom:
eeks, boring boring. but photos and company were FANTASTIC. i admit i'm a LITTLE of a camwhore, but i didn't succumb to my temptation of running around the WHOLE ballroom taking photos with everyone... okay i did walk around in disguise a little (supposedly to catch up with people) but that was only a little. it was cool seeing people prancing on stage vieing for the so-called glamourous titles. it was great acknowledging some people i knew but couldn't recognise due to their expensive make-up. but i was rather sad i didn't eat much of the food. i bet IF i did went up stage for the birthday song i would've missed the succulent chicken too... okay i was a little pai-sei, but it's also for the food, really!

post-prom was a disappointment but i did dance a little. i think i danced my best dance in clubs that night. oh well, maybe 'cos i was the 'highest' that night among all the nights i clubbed. haha.
it's cool nicholas went along with me to celebrate my birthday. really appreciate his friendship. i went over to say hi to faizal and belle and danced with them a little. danced with hana too. but then again the lychee martini was good. thanks hana. heh.

Korea trip with family (29th Nov - 6th Dec) :
what can i say. a uber-rare overseas trip with my family. really really appreciate the opportunity to spend quality time with them. well, i'm back and everyone's busy with their own stuff again (yea my bros go out with their friends too) so it's back to normal. But then again, had a really great time sight-seeing and taking in the breath-taking scenery. yea i know jeju island, nami island and seoul do not have the best sceneries, but to my inexperienced eyes, they were a sight to behold indeed. i especially cherish the freedom i get just being myself there. i bet many of you can imagine me unleashing the child-like quality or if u want the childishness in me by jumping in excitment in seoul or getting all starry-eyed at the fantastic sceneries in nami and jeju. i got to see the palace of the korean imperial family in ancient times and wear the koreans' traditional costumes. what made this trip especially important for me was the fact that at a time of sadness and fatigue emotionally, i felt a sense of escapism and an avenue for me to rejuvenate and leave my sadness to be numbed by the cold there. now that i'm back, i feel more accepting of facts that have unfolded in my personal life in recent times, i've learnt to let go of things that ain't gonna happen, and i'm also less fazed by the fact that i'm going to army soon as i know i've spent quality time during the December holidays.

2 interesting events in this trip are the unplanned meeting with two of my friends there in very very rare circumstances! First, i met si min while i was busy posing for photographs at the very scenic nami island. i heard someone call my name and to my surprise it was si min! it was a really pleasant surprise indeed. i regretted taking of my spectacles to take the photos at that time 'cos i got caught doing so and was labelled a 'vainpot' by her sister!!! hahaha.

The second person i met was jade from band. met her in a korean steamboat restaurant... okay most restaurants there serve korean steamboat, but this is not the point. the point is it was sooo coincidental. imagine going to a foreign country the size of korea with more than a 1000 restaurants and meeting your friend in one such restaurant. it was unreal, but at the same time i've met si min already, so it ain't as much a surprise meeting jade anymore since i've learnt how small the world can be. well, it's fun bumping into aquintances and friends in least expected circumstances you know. haha.

Pubbing, mahjong session, etc.:
pubbing was cool 'cos i could catch up with close friends again. really understand the value of true friends now. and now i can truly say i don't really think my life sucks anymore just because i don't communicate as well as others with their classmates.

had mahjong session with sandra (organiser) and 2 of her friends at my house. kinda addicted to it you know.. i've been trying to plan for another such 'gathering', lol. anyone interested?

there's been many other activities like staying over at Liselle's and 'j2 bowling farewell' gathering. all were fun times that i will definitely appreciate after going into army, i'm sure. hahaha.

have a nice day! will be some time again for my next post.

Prom Night / Korea Trip

KOREA TRIP!!! [click on picture for link to see all photos]



PROM NIGHT!!! [same as korea photos]

dumb dumb

this is stuuupid. there's something wrong with blogger. i can't change my template without all the different frames converging at a lil corner at the top left hand side. tsk. fuck it. not gonna do it anymore. too busy too busyy...

prom tomorrow. guess i'm ready. hahaha.

dumb dumb

What's history?

A LEVELS: OVER!!!

Goodbye to you my favourite school...

My tribute to CJ... (J1s that i know, you all make up my memories in CJ too, especially all those who were under me during orientation. so thank you all so much)




OR go to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vFhce7ntJwU if the video montage doesn't load.

phew

woah... prelims are finally over. but now what??

Ridzuan, respect man.

Awesome. Ridzuan, respect my bud. =)

East Coast

http://www.dropshots.com/lshijie

all the pictures for today's East Coast outing.

Thanks Liselle for organising. =)

reminisce

http://magnifyme.blogspot.com/2005_06_01_archive.html
http://magnifyme.blogspot.com/2006_01_01_archive.html

it's good to reminisce sometimes. one particular post is still so relevant. wtf. haha.

i'm like a punchbag for myself.

this blog is so restrictive. after layers and layers of superficiality, this blog is losing its worth to me. in fact, i feel that this blog is a burden. but it carries too much sentimental value.

maybe after this page of my life i'll resume writing. but for now, i wanna live in reality.

LAST PTM maybe?

today's parent-teacher meeting was, well, as expected. it went well, but was rather emotional for me.. nope, not because i got screwed by my teachers or parents, but because this maybe the last PTM for me, as a student that is.

i was hoping to meet some friends on the way, but i didn't. it isn't a really big deal, but i'm just saying cos' i've nothing else to say. hahaha.

recently i subscribed to a daily horoscope reading via email. but it's not accurate every day. like sometimes i had a great day but they said i'll be spending time with myself to catch up on myself. like "HUHH?" right? yea i got that reaction too. but oh wells, at least they got it right when they said a week or 2 back that i feel different from the past, like i'm more able to let go of things in the past that isn't going anywhere. so i guess there's still enough creditability for my to cont. subscribing to it...

anw there's this harry potter craze going on on my msn. i've seen (since 21st july) many people having nicks that have something to do with harry potter, like "albus severus potter" and "snape severus". and the majority of them trying to be funny by giving abstract spoilers, like "don't think JK should have introduce aliens to HP". what's up with snape's popularity!? suddenly he has become more popular than harry potter. hmm...

well, to catch up with the harry potter craze, i'm going to watch the latest harry potter movie with my cousins. of cos it wil be fun. =)

well, i pray i'm be more hardworking as the days past. this will contribute to the promise i made to myself, yea.

please lahh

WALIAOS i can't stand it already. I WANNA -

1. GO TO A FREAKIN' KTV AND SING SOME FREAKIN' CHINESE SONGS!
2. PLAY MAHJONG AND WIN SOME FREAKIN' MONEY. HAHA!
3. WATCH HARRY POTTER. (plan already plan already heheh)
4. WATCH SOME FREAKIN' DVDS. (those movie's that i missed)
5. GO AND FREAKIN' THROW MY BOWLING BALL DOWN THOSE FREAKIN SYNTHETIC LANES AGAIN LAH!

haha. so milu, you know what to plan already huh. HAHA. maybe we shall set a FREE day to sing some songs in the morning, bowl in the afternoon and play mahjong the whole night! then all we wants SET already! HAHAHA!

ohisolovemyhairnow! hahaha. wait five more days, it'll blossom to be even nicer, trust me. HAHA! ;)

thank you all for telling me it's so short, 'cos then i could prove my point to liselle. SEE TOLD YA LISELLE!! HAHAHA! oh lizzy i'm so waiting for your gift! HAHA. oops can the whole world know? heh ;)


enjoy your day 2moro people! i end at 10am 2moro! WhooHOO!! HAHAHAHAHA. (i'm going nuts laughing lahh =p )

my body aches all over!

i'm really turning cheena. never mind who cares! it's fun!

two little pics from the wedding dinner i attended today. i think it's the wedding of my uncle's wife's brother. had fun. =)






the 2 little cuties in the picture are my new friends i made there. HAHA! they're sooooo adorable! the little girl's jiaxin and the boy's weijie. jiaxin even made me promise her that i'll see her again when she comes back from indonesia by hooking our pinkies. how cute! btw her eyes are twinkling and nice! *gosh* every one at my table praised her eyes. lol. oh and the red wine that the restaurant offered was niceee. hahaha.

steady steady

i'm sooo gonna disappoint my parents cos my mid yr results stink to the core. haii...

nonetheless, these few days have been going on smoothly. the last lap of jc life, the final preparations to A levels. this is the first time i feel so willing to work hard.


things will never be the same again... =)

i'm turning CHEENA!



i watch campus superstar on youtube if i miss it on tv.

i listen to chinese songs after i watch campus superstar.

i go online to find the lyrics.

i sing along.

i watch other chinese shows.


HIGH FIIIVVVVEEEEE!!!! hahahaha.
now i can communicate with the cheena ppl. NI HAO!

Midyears, then back to you...

"All That I Need" - Corrinne May


I'm sorry that I hurt you

I took for granted all you gave so freely to me



I prayed it's not too late

To save you from a broken heart

To promise you I'll make a brand new start


Believe me when i say












You are all that I need

The only treasure I see

You're the air that helps me breathe


through the darkest night

When I fall down on my knees

I was blind but now I see

You are all that I need












When no one far from perfect

Like a child that needs a guiding hand


Can you stay here with me

I finally understand

You've always been the missing part

Complete the jigsaw puzzle of my heart



Please hear me when i say








You are all that I need

The only treasure I see

You're the air that helps me breathe



through the darkest night

When I fall down on my knees

I was blind but now I see

You are all that I need














Please let me hear your voice again

Let me hear you say your love will never end

That whatever it takes you'll be there

When I say







You are all that I need

The only treasure I see

You're the air that helps me breathe

through the darkest night

When I fall down on my knees

I was blind but now I see

You are all that I need

You are all that I need...

trapped like a caged animal

i've not been studying for the past 3 days. but they have been eventful.

Saturday:
Saturday was cool. caught pirates at around 12.30 with a good friend who was as desperate to watch it as me. haha. was good just dumping everything aside and not being bothered for 3 fine hours. the movie was fantastic. the action and comedy were there, as well as babes (elizabeth swank! woots!). i was so glad i caught this movie before it stopped screening, if not... DVDs AT HOME are so much less fun! was supposed to go to Icekimo to eat icecreams with my beloved J1 bowlers, but they couldn't make it at the last min. so i slacked the rest of the sat away...

Sunday:
Sunday was a special day. It was the day that my relatives gathered for Fathers' Day celebration. We went to have a buffet lunch instead of the usual dinner. Lunch was dammnnn fun alright. The uncles were joking away, while the aunties provided us with all the gossips! haha! time passed very quickly as i found myself gorging on all the delicious food available.


My mum, her two sisters, and my ever so sweet ahma and ahgong!

My closest cousin ever. (:

Special mention to the BOY in black, he's my shuai bro. Woots! to his left is my cute bro. hahaha. the rest are my cousins.

Do i smile like J1's dawn? HAHA.

Family with Ahma and Ahgong!

All the cousins with Ahgong and Ahma!

My own 'creation' - " 'lala' at sea ". HAHA! nice right.

My bad! i was too engrossed in the food and all the conversations i forgot to take photos of the other food they have. But what a wonderful lunch. YUM.

Monday:

Monday was 'ns medical' day. i was very nervous. i don't know why, but i was super nervous. but after everything, i felt that, eh, it's actually nth man! why did i get so nervous for... and i thought about it. maybe i'm also 'over-nervous' about my life already. maybe it ain't as scary as it seems to be. The long waiting time in between stations added on to my unsettleness, but it's the same in my life. hmm... sounds chim. haha. but yeeaaa, i'm so glad i got pass it. next year will be the real thing. hmmm... went home knowing a new friend Samuel. he's damn friendly. i saw him at CMPB wearing the CJ PE attire so i went and say hi. In the end we ended up going for the medical together, and his dad sent me to Bishan in the end! i was feeling a bit awkward and paisei la, but oh wells... heh. well, there's a slight bruise in my vein nw but i guess it's normal. was tired after that and immediately went to bed after that. haha. *weak la, so? hahaha =p*

so i guess i must start studying again alr... SIANNNN...

i'm getting tired of this. i must always find a reason to talk to you... i can't do this... i can't find anymore reasons to talk to you, except one - i just wanna talk to you. but i can't.

shrek 3!!!

Shrek 3!
watching shrek 3 with my two younger brothers turned out to be really fun after all. but unexpectedly, the one that roared with laughter and bounced on the cinema chair shrieking is myself instead of them. they were like, so calm and collected, even while watching Pinocchio twist his words or while watching the frog king dying. i couldn't help bursting out in laughter. it was too funny. and i've never felt any better. like Milton Berle once mentioned, "Laughter is an instant vacation." and i really agree. it was the first time i really felt that i'm having a holiday.

okay back to the show. although it's just a couple of scenes that are really funny, it set me off into the 'laughing mood' and the subsequent less funny scenes could make me break a smile or 2. and that's what i love about comedies. unlike what critics say, the whole show doesnt have to be uber funny, just a few scenes that set the mood would do. and i think shrek 3 did a wonderful job in creating that mood. therefore, for me, i would give shrek 3 8/10 for being able to brighten up my whole day and allowing me time with my brothers. going to the movies with them gives me no pressure and i cn really be myself. and i think that added to the movie experience. that's why they're so adorable. lol. :)


my mum went for lasik surgery recently, and she says it's damn good. i'm just thankful nothing wrong happened. though her eyes are a little dry now and then, she's so delighted that she has perfect eyesight again. and she says it's like a new life. i dont know how true is that man, but i'm definitely not going to go for it for now even though she wants to sponsor me and asking me to repeatedly. hahaha. maybe in the future, but not now, i'm scarreeeddd. hahaha.


life is getting better for me, but i hope this rubs off onto my friends. i really hate to see them despair and troubled, 'cos i really know how it feels. jia you people, you know who you are. :)


i feel liberated. hahaha. this is one of the longest post i've written in recent times i think... whoo. guess i'm back. hahaha. study time!

a break from heartbreak...

i totally love walks at the vivo rooftop... it's totally the best feeling you can get. sighh...

and thanks xueer, liselle, tricia and nicky for helping me paint my room! thanks michelle for coming! hahaha. it was fun!

anyway, a break from my mundane life. here's a nice song. =)


Wait For You - Elliott Yamin

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they
Keep runnin' down my face
Why did you turn away

[Interlude]
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
(crazy)
How can you walk away
(When)
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just, just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

[Interlude]
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie
What you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

[Chorus]
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you
I'll be waiting...

charity bowl is finally done and dusted...

last saturday's sushi tei dinner with family was nice. its been a long time since i experienced such a fulfilling fulfilling time with you all.

the 3 different dishes that i like the most is the scallops covered with a layer of melted cheese. YUM..







followed by my main course, the chicken w/ egg don. the onions serving were generous and they were soft but springy on the bite. the chicken is okay but eaten with the pieces of seaweed and egg and rice they taste rather special.



ho hum! this side-dish is best! called 'dragon roll'. it's 'dragon' head was substituted by one of a lobster's. the sushis are avocado-wrapped with crispy prawn meat inside. yumm!

we went to ikea after this sumptous meal and i got a new open-concept wardrobe! it's damnnn nice. i'll get it by this saturday if i'm not wrong.



so CHARITY BOWL is finally over..i don't have the pictures now cos the pictures are in many different cameras and i'm waiting for their owners to upload them. i hope my face will get better now, now that it's over and i'll hopefully by less stressed. haha! BUT anw i'm soooo glad the charity bowl is a success and i wanna thank everyone who helped made it a success!!! u all know who you guys are... so


THANK YOU ALL!!! :):):)

megawatt smiles!

hello everyone!

i've uploaded the photos for nationals girls quartet day 1. click the link below to assess the photos. =)

http://www.dropshots.com/lshijie

eighteenth!

wooots! 18th position in 'doubles' category for nationals with ryan! new high for me. =)

compared my scores with last yr's. improved ALOT. uncle danny rocks! hahaa.

now i'm gonna aim for a 217 avg for quartet to push for a top 20 placing. wish me luck!

psstt.. liselle's blog is a little interesting ar... HAHA!

can't wait till the end of this week... and i'm gonna own my H1. you'll see. muahahaha.

COUNTDOWN TO CHARITY BOWL: 7 days!

we butchered the songs happily

ktv rocks! thanks to all who went ktv with me on fri. you guys rock!
had a blast. =)

no one sang this song, but it's still so beautiful...


I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do


"What Hurts The Most"
Rascal Flatts

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And i still miss you so much, this weakness in my heart...

my heart is fortified.

i dont feel like studying nowadays...
bowling is so fun now.
getting high scores for fun is seriously better than sex. whoo!
i hope the nationals will be even more exciting.
'cos that's what i only bank for now.

wish me luck for next week!

bowling nationals countdown: 4 more days.


JOIN CHARITY BOWL! ITS NOT EXPENSIVE, ITS FOR CHARITY!

the power of songs

the whole lyrics of "i'd rather" by luther vandross can summarise my feelings this past week.

http://profile.imeem.com/_sHwO8/music/2nW28Oqc/id_rather/
click the above link to listen.



yea... but it don't matter no more. (:

life's like that

whoo! never felt better. heh heh heh. =)=)=)

made for a korean drama

oohhh... life is a freakin' quadruple loop rollercoaster man. i'm currently dealing well with life in class. outside of class, there's this carnival feeling. it's a strange feeling, just like when one sits on an inverted carousel. you feel free and you feel like you can soar high into the sky, but something's just pulling you back down. that's my studies i suppose. i like riding on carousels. i think it's very dreamy. and it's a very good place to emo! lol.

studying in the library after school is not that bad you know. maybe more people should try it. =)


*
All my life
Is changing everyday
In every possible way

And all my dreams
It's never quite as it seems
Never quite as it seems

I know I've felt like this before
But now I'm feeling it even more
Because it came from you

And then I open up and see
The person falling here is me
A different way to be

Lalalaah lalalah lalalaah la la la

I want more (impossible to ignore)
(impossible to ignore)
And they'll come true (impossible not to do)
(impossible not to do)

And now I tell you openly
You have my heart so don't hurt me
You're what I couldn't find

A totally amazing mind
So understanding and so kind
You're everything to me

All my life
Is changing everyday
In every possible way

And all my dreams
It´s never quite as it seems
Because you´re a dream to me (a dream to me)

Lalalaah lalalaah (to fade)


Dreams
The Cranberries
1993
*

a non-existent dilemma

you know livejournals have this "what i'm listening to now" or "how i'm feeling right now: (insert face)" functions?

this is mine - what song represents my feelings now:


Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)


I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)


And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)


I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)


"Goodbye My Lover"
James Blunt
2004

3 weeks to nationals...

i made a terrible mistake, and now there's nothing more to say.

orientation: remix photos

gosh. the long-awaited photos. i adore!


Presenting... IG / 1T [[ T H I R T Y ]]
















this is not all you know!


for my complete collection of orientation:remix photos, pls visit
www.dropshots.com/lshijie . thank you!

Tour de Japon Aeris' Theme FFVII

Heavenly.

Range Of Sight

i think i have made it look like i'm going to die by touching on some sensitive issues. but i'm not. it's just a very powerful theme to convey my feelings.

i don't think i'm sad, so i hope the rest don't think so too.

there's this new game show coming out on tv (channel 5 to be exact) called "Deal Or No Deal". i think it has a very interesting concept and it has a huge prize money - $250,000 - on offer! i would love to take part in that competition, but i'm not yet 21. dammit. it's so easy to earn money in this game! they have the details of the game in their website, http://www.dealornodeal.com.sg/ . more interestingly, they have made an online game of the same format at http://www.dealornodeal.com.sg/game.htm . try it and see how much money you can get just by playing 'ticum'! i got something like 26k! hahaha.

games aside, i wanna say something random. i think math vectors 4 tutorial is freakin' difficult. i've to do till question 6 but i dont even know how to do question 1. bleh.

Sorries + Random Shit.

SORRY...

this goes out to anyone and everyone i've offended in anyway.
i just want to do this. i think i've offended enough people.
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i guess only the people who really know me will understand.
i guess only the people who made me will cry if i die.
but i guess, it will be very hard for all the rest to remember me.

but i'm really, already contented.
because i guess the more i ask for, the more i will lose.

thus, when the time comes when Grandpa smiles at me in heaven, i guess i'll be able to tell him, "Grandpa, i've had a really wonderful journey coming up here," without shedding a tear...

but i will also tell him,"but Grandpa, i wanna stay here. 'cos by staying here, at least i'll have you."


whatever i do from now on, even blinking my eyes, will be an exclusive experience that i will cherish. you know how it feels when you blink your eye, but you will never know how it feels when i blink mine. so, even if i die without a penny, or in whatever state, i'll be contented; it'll be a wonderful experience for me.

upon saying that, i wanna add that referring to the advertisement where a guy's life is made into a movie, i'll still be cheering at the end of MY life movie, 'cos even though it may be a 2-hour-long blank screen in the dark, AT LEAST my life is being screened. what a honour.



only the people who truely understands me will know that the supposedly random shit is actually a very abstract cry for something i yearn so much for.

I Seriously Need...

so, orientation 2 is more or less done. the extra 1 day after march hols is really quite a dumb idea. people come and go, or so they say. i saw more familiar faces than the new ones. so the new j1s are rather much the same.

orientation: remix was kinda screwed up due to lack of time. HOUSE night was not as impactful to me as finale night in O1. people were not tight enough. don't feel the 'family spirit'. but still, i enjoyed being able to lead and serve.

rockafella was a blast.

i got a sore throat, aching body, and blisters on my leg. to top it all, i'm damn freakin' tired i fell asleep WHILE typing out the IG contact list.

however, i'll still save whatever little energy i've left for the one i love most - bowling.
i'll never forsake it.

i need rest.
i want comfort.
but if one can have it all, i hope for someone to rest on... ;)

composed by a song.

yesterday was a day of activities. in the morning was facil training camp. There's a game that was damn TRAUMATISING. but i heard they will either cancel that game or modify it. woot.
mass dance is getting sexier by the years. haha!

then there was milu's gathering yesterday at her house. not bad, the attendance. milu, iris, alvin, li, andy, mich and me. a small but happening group. haha! the bbq pit was disgustingly high and the bad thing was that there's no lift. so we'll have to climb up 4 stories to get to the bbq pit. poor milu, she had to do that many times because she forgot to bring stuff UP to the bbq pit so she had to go back to her apartment and get the stuff and climb back up that trecherous steps.

however things were better when everything was there. the charcoal's nice and warm and colourful - the red gleaming coyly though blankets of grey and the black standing out proudly at the perimeter of the 'charcoal castle'. through songs and games, we managed to pass time very quickly; and in a fun way too. every one did many forfeits except me, so milu wanted to continue the game until i got caught to do a forfeit. they claimed that the forfeit for me was the most 'jialat' forfeit of the night, but i thought it was chicken feet. HEH. after my forfeit it was time to pack up. haha.



milu's apartment is niceeee. like... small and cosy! there's something in her brother's room that i could NOT take my eyes off. i really want something like that on my wall too... milu's computer monitor ain't that far off. we watched MAN UTD beat LIVERPOOL 1 - 0 together, and then talked a lil.

everyone's nice, but smelt like bbq. but ultimately, the smell of fun is sweet as hell.

but it's back to school on monday again. seeing my friends getting good and not very good results, i think that i'd be better off being back to school sooner rather than later.

Crushes

Dear Milu. I can't understand why you are so into your crush. you know what? i'm going to find myself a crush too, AND my crush will crush your crush! HAHAHA.

~
stomach flu, gastric flu,
you've made me so blue.
i wanna eat bak gua, mandarin orange,
now can only eat porridge.
wanna study for common test,
now can only lay in my nest.
stomach flu, gastric flu,
you've made me so blue.
~

that sums up mostly everything for the past 2 days.

ANYWAY, thanks 1t18 for turning up on Sat to celebrate the festic season with me. you guys rock! so HAPPY BLESSED NEW YEAR once again.


i hope the sunny days will come again...


p.s. my crush wherever you are, i'll find you. muahaha. oh! but my dear, whoever you will be, pls listen to "written in the stars" by westlife, 'cos our love will be oh-so-sweet, just like that song. hahahahahaha!


p.s. to the p.s. i'm just kidding. =p

study study here i come

i DON'T WANT to give up everything, but i just feel like i'm giving up.

sometimes i look back and i just can't accept the fact that i'm still in jc. it's not always, but it happens.

sometimes i analyse the present and i feel i've lost the support of certain pivotal people. i just can't go on without the support of them..

i'm involved in too much, but then again, this year's my last chance of doing all those things.

sometimes i feel i've lost my smile; my child-likeness; myself. some people tell me to keep smiling. i've been trying, but it's not real anymore.

i like to make people happy, but i can't even make myself happy.

it's easy to tell yourself to preservere; it's difficult to put that into action.

i don't know what will happen to me after 1st 3 mths. common test is coming, i just wanna study and do my very best. at least i can satisfy my own expectations. but then again, yes, it's always very easy to say...













this ain't an emo post, is it?

is there a remedy for a orientation hangover?

you know, i think i'm STILL suffering from the after-effects of orientation. Suddenly i feel like being a facil and re-living orientation all over again! BUT my studies are really crap right now and i also wanna catch up on my work... i really dont know what to do.

i listened to vitamin c's "grad. song" yesterday night on the radio and it brought me to think about the future. in the near future, nice friends i met during orientation may leave CJ for better schools and in the distant future, JC graduation might bring tears to my eyes. I feel that time is going by freakin' fast nowadays, like nobody's business. we have just ushered in the new year but in a blink of an eye we're almost going into the 3rd month of the 'new' year. it's seriously WTF la.

i'm also very afraid of A lvls. it sucks. and there's not much time left. i've been telling myself not to give up, that i can do it, but at the end of the day, i'm still very worried. very worried...

nonetheless, here's wishing all J1s all the best for their results. cheers. =)

Get wowed by a perfect circle. Impossible?

Parts of us will be left behind in time

had dinner with kyuuka facils on fri. but i'll not elaborate on that. it was fun though, for the half-an-hr i was with them.

and then, i had a date with 1T18 yesterday. nat and laura cldn't make it for some reasons. so was the only facil there. around 7-8 people in the class went only?? but we still had a good time. spent most of the day at yishun safra, which was actually a very good plan. organising is so much easier with these kinda venues.

so, the itinerary of yesterday was bowling-lunch-pool-arcade.

played 1 bowling game with house ball with the rest. it really feels darn different from the past. i still remembered the euphoria of getting a strike or 2 in the past when i was still a small child. but now, all these are not enough for me anymore. the simple joy of bowling has turned into expectations and the aim for perfection. a strike or spare is not enough anymore; a consecutive amt of strikes or spares is the expectation now. so what will become of bowling in my life after this year's nationals, i wonder. my last nationals, my last chance to perform. what if i fail, yet again. my passion, i hope, will not turn into dust.

lunch was done at a nearby coffeeshop. on retrospect, i've not eaten at a coffeeshop for a very long time. i think i'm kinda spoilt to a certain extent, 'cos i was quite reluctant to eat there when they suggested. however, i went there with the class in the end. food was rather limited but okay. chatted with the class a lil and enjoyed some crapping together. i ended up admiring one of my junior's phone, which was exceptional. the camera can be twisted in weird ways, and you can take a photo practically like how you operate a remote control.

pool was rather funny. we had 2 tables but arnd 10 people? thus, we had to take turns. there were some odd moments of laughter, like when some people "air-balled" or made the cue bounce off the table to some guy's sensitive area. but all in all, the time spent there was enjoyable.

finally, it was arcade time. i dont normally go to the arcade so i felt quite lost there. people were scarce, mainly 'cos it was rather out of the way. there was a lan area too. moreover, the arcade was damn outdated 'cos they still use tokens. aye, even i arcade noob also know that those big arcades already use "cashcard devices" already.

hao yuan had this stupid idea of playing the dance machine. so we pulled everyone in to play, to embarrass ourselves, one by one, including me. we all ended up looking stupid on the platform, but as the warped saying goes, one person doing something stupid looks stupid; many people doing the same stupid thing looks cool. anyways, we all had immense fun. there were more laughter than the whole day combined.

that was all. but it was a day well spent for me. anw, parting was easy. 'cos we know we'll see each other in school again...


well, 1T18 is damn fun and i know they will remain fun for the rest of the 1st 3 mths. as the title goes, part of us will be left behind in time, and i believe part of me has been left behind with 1T18. so rock on guys, i love your class spirit. remember, leave no one out of your class, even after 1st 3 mths!

What's long may be even longer; what's short may not be short.

CJ Bowling is getting more interesting.

Somehow or rather i'm starting to love every single minute of life...

The light at the end of the tunnel is one of a train...

hello blog. i'm back, finally. the past few weeks have been super hectic but really fun for me. i had orientation facilitation to deal with, then was post-orientation syndrome, and then now's the consequences of getting involved in orientation...

Orientation 01, themed Genesis, was a definite blast. its was so fun that touring round the world in a private plane will probably be so boring to me now. best of all, i was in the house that won best house, KYUUKA. not only that, i was put into the house with all the amiable 'co-facils' whom i thoroughly enjoyed my time with. three cheers for Kyuuka!

Orientation took place on the 1st day of sch and stretched to the 6th day. the first three days were with igs(index groups) and the next three days were with class. ig 14, the ig i took, was damn fun. although they were really stoned the first day, they warmed up to the school and the people around them real quick, and from the second day on it was a blast. PA games was fantastic, never mind me getting thrown into the swimming pool. though we walked quite a distance that day which resulted my feet getting hurt 'cos i'm flat-footed, i thoroughly enjoyed the games, especially the one that the j1s had to lie on the muddy ground to form words with their bodies. they are really enthu and 'ON', which made us facils damn happy. the surprise of the day was when benjamin led cheers, which i thought wld never happen as a result of the impression of the 1st day. we cheered our way to victory in the Dog & Bone game in the shallow swimming pool. it went something like: IG 14! ARE YOU OKAY!!! ARE YOU ALRIGHT!!! IG 14, OWNNNNSSS!!!, which was really cool. although we dint get to play the 'mud bowling' game, we still had uber fun. IG 14 is etched in my mind and guys, you all rock. really. i'm glad i facilitated you guys and i'm glad you guys enjoyed us too.

we had to split after 3 days 'cos the cj system was to rearrange the j1s to their classes on the 4th day onwards. though i was sad to leave IG14, and even sadder AT FIRST to get a computing class to facil (you know why), i was really pleasantly surprised at the enthu-ness of the class! it was like, uber uber cool. it was sad that i had to be game master on kallang day (day 5), which meant that i couldn't dragonboat with the class, but being game master was an opportunity which not everyone can get and i treasure it. AND i must say that Laura and Natalie, you two did a great job facilitating the class during Kallang day. i really saw you 2 bringing the class together, bonding them, as i found out during lunch.

EVEN BETTER was the East Coast Park amazing race. i remember Rendy being damn enthu, even though its just bcos he was looking forward to lunch. i remember how we all would run to our checkpoints together, and how Ms Chia would be lagging behind. I also remember the chemistry between all of them while doing the tasks at the respective checkpoints. I remember how they would respond SO ENTHUSIASTICALLY to me when i went crazy and shouted "1T18! ARE YOU OKAY!!! ARE YOU ALRIGHT!!! ANY SWEAT!!!". It was electrifying. On a personal note, i remember what Ms Chia said to me when i asked her for feedback on my facilitating, which she replied earnestly that with me facilitating the class, the class would be in safe hands. though it's nothing much, but the affirmation touched my heart.

(( 1T18, you guys are a great bunch of people and i totally tresure you guys as my cute j1 juniors and great friends. i hope that for the rest of the 3 mths that you'll be spending together, remain as bonded as ever ya! ))

however, without a doubt, the best day/night of all was finale night. after so much effort preparing and planning with the other kyuuka facils, we finally had the chance to show our mettle. cheering was unbelieveable. everyone was so hyped up. the atmosphere was real electrifying and intimidating. all 4 houses cheered their throats sore. 1T18, along with other classes, were picked to do the skit section and they pulled it off seamlessly. the result - Kyuuka skit was as funny and at the same time heartwarming like hell. all the other houses' skits were real funny too. and the stomp was amazing. facil skit was memorable, with justin doing a parody of the movie Borat, some audition-like comedy which featured a 'striptease' by two grown men, namely andrew and winson, and more. Perhaps, the best moment of the whole orientation was the time when the results of the awards were announced. the part when jason went, "Kyuuka.... you.. WON." ROCKED the whole of Kyuuka house and drew silence from the rest. We were over the moon. I was ecstatic. the euphoria was overwhelming and the whole of kyuuka cheered for our house. the other houses followed with cheers of their own, signalling that the temporary rivalry between the houses was over.

Then it was the time for mass dance. Sondra was laughing at my dancing or my facial expression when i was dancing. However, it was a time of "laughing WITH" and not "laughing AT", and so there was no animosity. the whole school danced to the song of Take The Lead and the ever-popular Bangra. it was a time when the whole j1 cohort and the facils were all doing the same thing and it was a sight to behold (especially from the stage, lol). But once mass dance was over, we all know we had to end the night and every one slowly went back to a state of realisation...


at this point, i would like to extend my gratitude to Natalie and Laura, who both went through the whole facilitating process with me. You 2 are great partners and it was my pleasure working with you 2. =)

Also, to every facil in Kyuuka. Thank you for all the fun and laughter and the hard work. Most of all, thank you all for all the unforgettable times we had. (psst!kyuuka gathering soon! haha)

finally, to all those whom i met during the orientation, be it j1s or j2s or even j3s, thank you for contributing to the best experience i have in cj.

Whistle For The Choir - The Fratellis

Please respect this song. It's THE song to listen to. YEAAA!