i feel unappreciated. life's tough having to play the game of cat and mouse with Recognition. as the old saying goes, "when you do work, people do nothing. when you rest, people look with disdain". i know this ain't the exact phrase, but perfection can just **** off. What i strive for, i don't really get. as always anyway...
why am i so useless??? i can't do anything right. i may seem playful and positive and all, but i'm not having all that crap planted in my brain. i know. i know what i'm worth. thanks for looking at me in a positive light. but i think i'm getting all too paranoid, paranoid that i'm always going down this endless road of failure and rising to the top of uselessness. i know i said mentioned paranoia, but one down the road, this will become true.
i'm just sorry i can't be what i imagine myself to be. i'm just sooo sorry.
