made for a korean drama

oohhh... life is a freakin' quadruple loop rollercoaster man. i'm currently dealing well with life in class. outside of class, there's this carnival feeling. it's a strange feeling, just like when one sits on an inverted carousel. you feel free and you feel like you can soar high into the sky, but something's just pulling you back down. that's my studies i suppose. i like riding on carousels. i think it's very dreamy. and it's a very good place to emo! lol.

studying in the library after school is not that bad you know. maybe more people should try it. =)


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All my life
Is changing everyday
In every possible way

And all my dreams
It's never quite as it seems
Never quite as it seems

I know I've felt like this before
But now I'm feeling it even more
Because it came from you

And then I open up and see
The person falling here is me
A different way to be

Lalalaah lalalah lalalaah la la la

I want more (impossible to ignore)
(impossible to ignore)
And they'll come true (impossible not to do)
(impossible not to do)

And now I tell you openly
You have my heart so don't hurt me
You're what I couldn't find

A totally amazing mind
So understanding and so kind
You're everything to me

All my life
Is changing everyday
In every possible way

And all my dreams
It´s never quite as it seems
Because you´re a dream to me (a dream to me)

Lalalaah lalalaah (to fade)


Dreams
The Cranberries
1993
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a non-existent dilemma

you know livejournals have this "what i'm listening to now" or "how i'm feeling right now: (insert face)" functions?

this is mine - what song represents my feelings now:


Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)


I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)


And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)


I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)


"Goodbye My Lover"
James Blunt
2004

3 weeks to nationals...

i made a terrible mistake, and now there's nothing more to say.