i can be loving every single day, but inside, deep inside, i really hate myself. the direction is just not clear. bloody hell. i really fukin' hate myself; for feeling this way. but i think i thought it through, i really hope its this way.

wanted to say and do so many things, but the restrictions are there. its alright man. i came into this world with many restrictions, so i'll leave this world restricted still. i really am a large critisizer, of myself.

just wanting to thank a special someone, who always gives me advice on this and that. Christina, thank you. i'm so glad that i always have you to lead me to the right way when i always am lost. This whole thing(u know wad i mean) have been so smooth because of you. Yes, you've been a great comforter, a great friend. Though i never met you for long, u're some1 who i really trust FULLY, besides another one, my swezin. haha. anyway, thank you. i'm so glad i've this 'meix'. haha.

to my swezin, so rare in cyberspace, therefore i tink you will not see this, but i still have to say, deep inside, i really dont know why, but you're the only one who can make me feel that special way. the moon dont really shine, its the sun that makes it happen. you're my sun, you make me shine. without my sun, i'll be hidden and i'll be just an exsistance to fill this world. See your importance in my life? haha. i really hope there's really such thing as forever, ya? and... 831!!

another day has passed.. 3 more days to O'lvl results!!! Fukin' scared... and i still dont know where to go! should i have a poll to decide which institution of study should i go? haha! when my luck is good no big events like this happens.. just when my luck sucks rite now this stupid collection thingy comes up. damn! just hope that all those prayers work.

oh mentioning 'bout bad luck. my new e398 hp is freakishly spoilt the 2nd day i bought it. and the new set is out of stock. i've to wait like 3 weeks to get my new fone back. its going to be hell for me man. i've also lost many many contacts 'cos i din't transfer many to my simcard. why must this happen to me... maybe i shall try changing the position of my bed...

oh listen to tong hua by guang liang. great song. greater mtv. moving yet subtle. the lead actress in the mtv looks good too. :)

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