Have u ever missed someone
and felt terrible
because u think tat he/she doesn't miss u?

Missing someone is a terrible but at the
same time,
sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if u
meant
anything to him/her.
Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.

Rushing to the phone once it rings
hoping that it's
him/her.

Looking out of the window hoping that
he/she will
surprise u by appearing downstairs.

Sitting in front of the television but
thinking of
her
missing the final episode of your
favourite show.

Laying on your bed, thinking of the last
time u wen
out together.

Thinking of how nice it will be to sit
under the stars
again, talking about everything, your
dreams,
plans, future.

Logging on to the internet hoping to see
him/her
online.

When u realise that he/she isn't online
and did not
return your page, u will start worrying if
he/she is
okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i
guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being
lonely and let u
know that there is actually a feeling
known as
emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulge
in the
feeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing if
he/she is
feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him/her and
let them
know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.

Don't let the feeling of missing someone
become
jealousy or paranoid.
If u are the one being missed and u know
it, let the
other party know.
if u miss him/her too, tell them.
Don't let them wait.

Taken from 'missing someone' from a friendster bulletin.

You know, reading this is too late for me.. i've become the paranoid n jealous beast that i am now. i din't know missing someone too much can result in jealousy and paranoidity. Its this sudden urge of distrust and the recollections of some particular incidents that made me even more so.

Why is this so.. I know myself. I know i've changed. But there isn't anything, no there ain't nothing to pull me out of this. But i'm still trying. I really don't like the way I am now... Really don't. I'm beginning to hate myself. Hating others is already a very taxing thing to do, hating myself is a degree higher.

You know sometimes death ain't scary after all... haha. Nah, just saying only.

Yes, back to the article, i think its very VERy apt for me. I myself was shocked when i read it. I was like,"damn, this is it man. Wth, so true..." yea.. and i immediately reposted it up on friendster's bulletin board. Yea.. More to think about tonight. haha. guess my Physics marks are gonna get ugly. haha. ~gone~