happy good friday every one! haha. oh and happy belated birthday ness!

so i went ktv-ing yest. i realised how many flaws have crept into my singing since... argh. maybe my standard has always been that bad. yea so i sang and so they laughed. but its ok! i enjoy entertaining people! hahaha! my singing have made many people laugh - during bowling bbq dont how many people and now my relatives. and i actually feel good and i'm taking it in my stride. 'cos i acknowledge the fact that i'm not one of the lucky ones who are blessed with a nice vocal range. oh but i sing the monotonous songs damn well can. hahahaha!

woke up before my alarm clock rang today, like arnd 1015. i put the alarm for 1100. so i actually slpt 45 mins lesser than planned. oh well. unofficial bowling training ltr. hope i can maintain my good form at least till after the competition. bowling is currently top of my priorities, albeit not considering my studies. these few days i've always been dreaming myself winning things in the nationals. am i putting my sights too high?? am i only dreaming?? i really want to achieve something, something which i have never done before, be it in primary or secondary school. i want to achieve something so that my parents can have something about me to brag about, to be proud of, and most importantly to prove to myself that i can actually achieve.

no matter what i do, i will always fall behind someone i know, be it studies, computer games or sports. my closest to achieving something was either in the p6 1.6km run. i came in second but again, there was someone i fell behind to.

and it's not that i don't believe in myself. i do. and it's not that i did not put in effort. i believe i've always been very competitive, to some extent people may hate me for it. i achieve. yes i do. but what can lil achievements do? i beat 'eh-ee-ass' in bowling and i'm not afraid to say i'm fucking proud of it. but have anybody thought it's only right for me to beat him in the first place? lil things do nothing man.. it's like giving you 10 cents. go toilet the nno more alr!

hell! i shall stop whining alr. i guess what's mine will be mine and what's not, will forever be not.....