today's internet tv marathon sparked off a vigorous mental exercise for me. i was watching this show about a group of teenagers struggling to find themselves and with their relationships. i couldn't help but become deeply engrossed in it. perhaps it's because i could really relate to it.
in the show, there's a girl who left her husband for some reasons. however, she realised her mistake and returned to him in the end. however, the husband has already given up on her and their relationship. well, i think i could have been in the shoes of that female character. yes the circumstances would be different but basically the idea would still be the same.
we all have choices we will have to make in times of our lives. the timing, circumstance and obligations all influence how we make those choices. i was a teenager who, like everyone else at that stage, was finding myself and the direction i was heading. i had just got out of a relationship and i had schoolwork to think about. somehow there was too much pressure on my conscience at that time. at the same time, i was scared, for for a retainee in an asian society, there was nothing more important than putting your studies back on track. i was also afraid what i felt was delusional, like a forced feeling to get away from a breakup. i thought about almost everything from every angle. i realised my decision to get attached again was rash... until i felt the emptiness in my life a few months later. it was a feeling i have never felt before, and one that i've been living with since.
CHOICES. a word that comes with great responsibility, because you'll have to live with whatever festers from that choice on, whether you like it or not.
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