Contrast

http://lshijie.blogspot.com/2006/05/i-bowled-well-in-yesterdays-bowling.html... This was posted in 2006, when I was still in CJ's bowling team. Reminded myself how much i enjoyed bowling then. Back then, everything was worth it, every sweat and effort. Sometimes I wonder to myself, how did I become like this.

On another note, while looking back at the posts, I found this post too. http://lshijie.blogspot.com/2006/11/happy-birthday.html... And I wonder, how did I manage to lie so blatantly. I obviously wasn't happy due to my immaturity. But how did I act like I was okay. I'm so amazed.

Talked to miss Gina Cheng a while ago, and unknowingly, was brought back to the times I did wrong. The classic line, "I'll live with this regret my whole life" came back to haunt me. It still holds true. If you, the one I let down in the autumn of 2006, are reading this post, coincidentally, please allow me to ask you how you're doing, albeit being 5 years late. Really wanna talk to you again.

Similarly, if you, the one who got married, happen to pass by this post, just for old times sake, leave me a contact? You simply disappeared without a trace. I really wanna know how you're doing too, I really, wanna, know.

Leaving this post with mixed feelings. Will I ever get over my inner demons? Maybe only if those 3 questions above are answered...